slay the dragon

I've not been happy with my job for a long time.  I like what I do but not the situation that I do it in.  When I took my current position it was with the understanding that I would get a certain amount of training, support, etc and all that has suddenly gone away.  I talked about this to a friend of mine, the one that I am going to meet this weekend, and he really helped me to see that I'm the only one that can fix this.

I realize that I can make the best of my situation or that I can find something else.  I actually have the framework of a pretty sweet deal where I am.  I basically come and go as I please, I don't have people breathing down my neck all the time and I'm the only person really qualified to do my job. 

I realized last night that I can use this company to learn a new skill and then take that free education and make a lot of money with it elsewhere in a year or so.  I'm basically learning a new operating system and have plenty of free time to tinker with it and a certain degree of tech support to learn from.  I'm going to buy some books about it and teach myself the stuff that the IT department promised to send me to training for but now don't want to pay for.  I want my current company to come to NEED me so that when I get ready to jump ship for a way better deal they might try to do what it takes to keep me.  I may decide to stay if the money is right. 

Only I can better my situation and if I keep putting it off it will be too late.  I'm an intelligent person and I don't know why I'm afraid to succeed.  From now on I'm moving forward.  I'm done treading water.